6thirty: (luhan cute)
2017-02-20 10:00 pm

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i ate so much salmon, i worry i will start to hate it.
i also drank two cups of iced tea.
i felt so full, i wanted to puke a little.
eating at the mandarin was nice.
they had a koi pond.
i think i am ready to write my twine story.
even if it is going to suck.
it's okay if it sucks.
i need stuff to work with.
see where i am at.
i need to write in my agenda.
i bought it cheap.
but i don't use it effectively to be honest.
sometimes i feel like i can't think of anything.
so i took a nap this morning since i felt like that.
i need to look at my notes and start creating stories that i want to make.
i haven't started on any original projects.
i should extract images and host them on photobucket.
since flickr doesn't accept small images.
what a bother.
oh well.
whatever works right?
i got camtasia studio to work on my white laptop.
but i have to turn off the wifi to use it.
oh well.
i got to talk to my sibling.
it was nice.
wish we could have talked more.
6thirty: (Default)
2017-02-19 07:19 pm

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I need to make a new display ima and a header image on facebook.
i tried to take some photos of myself with my white laptop, but no matter i try to make it look good, the quality sucks.
i think i should download some songs by boa.
it brings back memories.
i also wanted to extract images from tactics ogre.
i also have to go through my cardcaptor sakura screenshots too.
i made a plot outline, but i don't know what to write down
i didn't get much done to be honest.
so i hope after this i'll perfect my interactive stories.
i don't want them too long.
but i also don't want them to be too short too.
i managed to get camtasia studio to work on my white laptop.
though i have to turn off the wifi to get it to work.
or else i'll end up turning it into a trial version of it.
i made some animated gifs.
i made them for the interactive stories i am going to work on.
i don't plan to put any images or sounds in the game.
tomorrow is family day.
i want to order some stuff, but i have to wait until my brother comes home.
i have lots of questions to ask him about.
but he left early to hang out with our cousin.
his birthday is coming up i think.
6thirty: (sungjae looking at you)
2017-02-12 07:47 pm

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i didn't get a lot done even though i had the time to.
it's unfortunate, but it was my fault in the end.
i feel a burst of motivation to do extract images from video games.
i am playing through cardcaptor sakura to get some of them.
i also want to mess around with nox.
i managed to get it working on my white laptop.
unlike with bluestacks.
i feel motivated to do some prewriting.
and writing down ideas to see where they will go.
i ate and drank a lot of food and juice today.
not at all caring about following that diet my mom wants me to go through.
my brother came home yesterday.
so we hung out and watched anime.
the tower of druga i believe it was.
we were on season two when he went to take a nap.
i am suppose to be jogging but my white laptop was running out of battery.
so i'm letting it charged.
i should go make a layout for my pixel art project. 
i have to extract some of the ones i already extracted since google drive isn't letting me download them and reupload them elsewhere.
i can't even copy the link to post elsewhere too.
sighs.
flickr is good to me.
thank god it's not like photobucket.
it's has some javascript, but not as much as photobucket.
and i can upload animated gifs without the site resizing them on me.
yay.

6thirty: (luhan blue)
2017-02-11 08:34 pm

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i cried a lot today.
i visited my family doctor.
i asked him if he could make a copy of the letter he received from the hospital.
i don't get to see my psychiatrist anymore.
i wonder if i should get another one.
in the letter, there were some ideas i could try.
but the one that suppose to teach me more about becoming like everyone else cost money.
money that my mother wouldn't spend.
i think it might be getting to the point where i have to spend some money in order to become more like everyone else.
my mom says as long as i am happy, that should be enough.
but i will never make long lasting friendships if i don't fix what is preventing me from creating those friendships.
i wish i wasn't such a problem child.
my mom tells me not to cry, because it'll make me look ugly.
i know it's her way of showing she cares.
but all i want to do is cry and hug someone i feel comfortable with.
i guess i should go back to the drawing board and see what i can do.
i am really interested in making a twine story slash game.
i don't know if i should go original or unoriginal.
maybe unoriginal first.
i've been wanting to write fanfiction for a long while.
6thirty: (luhan cute)
2017-02-01 12:34 am

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today was a good day.
even if i didn't get on my laptops.
i would like to have a lot done today.
but that is okay. 
i ended up coming up with a lot of ideas.
i feel eager to write.
but i need to plan.
it need to spit out every idea i can come up with.
and take whatever i like from it.
i was thinking making all of my stories into choose your adventure stories.
but will it work out?
i should start small.
get used to the ways of twine.
i want to finish dot hack the legend of the twilight and dot hack roots.
i want to write an mmorpg story like dot hack.
i always wanted to make games.
but i don't think becoming a game programmer is going to get me there.
i am thinking about becoming maybe a web developer.
i have some experience with it.
but it's not a lot when compared to others.
i want to write fanfics too.
i want to create character designs now.
so much to do.
need to organize my time.
i wrote it down, but not an actual schedule.
we'll see.
6thirty: (Default)
2017-01-30 09:20 am

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i woke up on time.
i did what i had to do to clean myself up.
and then i went back to sleep.
after attempting to collect information.
i need to not do anything productive on my bed.
i should treat it as a resource.
it is where i get comfort.
but also energy.
not a place to be doing any kind of work.
or i'll turn lazy.
or go back to sleep.
need to tie my hair up to declare my choice of working hard on my laptop.
it's not like i'm very tired.
i just don't feel like i have a lot of energy.
maybe i should meditate again.
or do yoga.
i must learn to become more and more healthy.
and participate in self-care and self-love.
i am waiting for bagels to finish being toasted.
i'm pretty hungry.
i have to call later.
so i know how to get there and navigate where i should be going.
maybe i'll add more thoughts after i finish eating.
6thirty: (luhan looking left)
2017-01-29 11:57 am

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i stayed up too late i think.
i feel like sleeping for an eternity.
i don't feel like doing anything.
don't know why.
is it physical?
mental?
or emotional.
there are still a lot of things to do.
before i can sit down and relax.
maybe i am taking on too many projects at the moment.
i'll have to cut it down to smaller goals.
so i don't feel so overwhelmed.
listening to tinashe a lot.
it's so catchy.
she is sexy.
and the songs are sexy.
right now i really like company by her.
always in the mood to dance a little.
though i have no idea how to dance.
i wonder if she will do acoustic versions of her songs.
weirdblacktea, i need to work on you.
after this, i'll take a nap.
i deserve it.
too much water.
too much fruits.
too much pizza.
too much karaoke.
i'm interesting in making stories with twine.
i need to try it.
or i'll never learn how to in the future.
investments.
damn it.
6thirty: (yoseob mustache)
2017-01-28 08:58 am

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a little tired in the morning.
can't be helped.
yesterday i picked out a notebook and an agenda.
they look really cool.
though they'll be useless if i don't do anything with them.
i still have lots of other notebooks to use too.
i want to do a lot of stuff.
like finishing a dreamwidth layout.
writing down all i can think of to write a story about.
using office supplies to get stuff done.
maybe i should have bought that hole puncher.
but i can't think of anything to use it for.
next time i see it, i'll buy it.
what else to do.
oh yeah.
got to download the rest of the .hack games.
i never go to play the second and third game.
and i don't know if i want to know ahead of time of what will happen next.
i already seen the promise card endings.
gotta walk on tread mill, as i missed like three to four days already.
take down notes.
upload notes.
make sure they look nice.
move on to other areas i have yet to get started on or needs immediate attention.
today is lunar new years too.
6thirty: (zico chill)
2017-01-27 07:14 pm

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i went to my cousin's house to hang out before the lunar new years.
i was going to type down the dialogue from the rebirth game.
instead of typing down from the actual game itself.
i decided to go watch online and write it down that way.
the pause button helps a lot.
there is still a lot of work to do.
before i can start another project.
i need to insert images i have taken from the black laptop.
and insert them into their intended posts.
i also am working on making a dreamwidth layout for my dream novel or twine community.
i am also watching the .hack animated series.
i have to finish watching roots too.
i was thinking about watching movies while i walk.
there's also that let's get married series to watch too.
no one has yet to reply to my post.
i really want to fix the mistake in my dreamwidth layout for my .hack//g.u. series.
i don't really have a lot to say.
played some pokemon go while sitting in the car and going to places.
burned paper money, paper clothes, paper everything for my grandfather who no longer living.
i don't know much about him and neither does my mother.
but i like to think he was as kind as my grandmother.
my stepfather is sick.
it doesn't bother me.
our relationship doesn't really exist.
sometimes i wonder if i should try being nicer to him.
but a part of me doesn't want to.
i don't really trust him.
like him.
or appreciate him.
maybe i am being selfish.
but i can't help it, i don't see the way the others see him.
6thirty: (luhan's side profile)
2017-01-26 05:58 pm

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i had a cup of hot chocolate with a mug i got my mom to buy.
it comes with a lib and it's so cute.
it's a white cat.
i went to my cousin's house to hang out.
but i ended up sleeping instead.
even though i wanted to play with my white laptop.
i made some edits in the weirdblacktea community.
though i made a mistake and will need to go back to my black laptop to find out the spelling of whatever it is.
i also have a plastic mug with a face of a bear.
it's adorable.
i also got two bottles of pomegranate flavoured aloe.
i need to work on adding the images to the content i uploaded yesterday.
i ended up writing down the conversations of the non-playable characters.
it's a bit of a hassle, but it really doesn't bother me.
i also take pictures of them too.
i plan to put up images of the non-playable characters along with their conversations.
i also plan to separately put up a list of their inventories too. 
i love listening to music after i showered and sit down somewhere comfortable.
i stopped working on my singer and his boyfriend story.
i ended up switching over to another hobby.
sighs.
do i want to be a writer?
because i really want to write to be honest.
but there's so much work to do.
to even get started, you know?
maybe i'll figure a system to follow.
and churn out actual written works.
you know?
6thirty: (luhan staring at you)
2017-01-25 09:44 pm

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i changed my layout a bit.
now the text is also blurry.
like my images.
i feel a bit tired since it's getting late.
i want to meet more people.
who know about the dot hack series.
who love the dot hack series.
i was thinking about watching the dot hack series.
to help me come up with ways of writing a fic.
i managed to update my dot hack g. u. community.
i am almost done.
i would like to make some minor changes though.
maybe after i receive a reply to my post.
on how to fix the previous and next links.
i also need to edit the images i extracted from the rebirth game.
i spent like all day on my black and white laptops.
the save file works.
so that makes me happy.
i need to make sure to save as often as i can.
i don't want to go back too far in time.
i don't have a lot of time.
so i like to think.
i should make an effort to write though.
i really want to get started on my limerence community.
i only have the background done.
i'm also thinking about not changing the line height.
it's just takes up too much time to mess with.
it's getting easier and faster to make dreamwidth layouts.
that makes me happy.
and it makes me realize that with time.
i learn and work faster if i expose myself more to what i am working on.
i really want to try becoming a writer.
but i also want to obsess over dot hack.
what to do.
i rearranged my  bedroom.
and i like it.
i like it a lot.
6thirty: (yuya looking at you)
2017-01-23 10:07 am

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i feel a bit tired.
i've been working on waking as early as i can.
in the past, i used to sleep so much.
i barely had time to do everything i want to do.
i also have this habit.
where i just look at the stuff i make.
and i can't help look at them.
admiring my own work.
is that something that artists suppose to do?
i'm making progress with my dot hack database.
right now i am working in the artsy part of the forums in the game.
i need to take a shower.
i also need to walk too.
i didn't know there was a difference.
in terms of profile codes and entry codes.
and a lot of the time the term codes is used interchangeably.
but now that i know.
it'll make things easier for me.
it's fun, making art.
if what i am doing is even art.
i am also more motivated to write a dot hack fic.
over a haikyuu fic.
i wonder why?
maybe it's because it's been a long time.
since I came back to this fandom again.
perhaps there are more things i can work with.
unlike with haikyuu.
got myself a flickr account.
because google drive is being stupid.
google drive won't let me download any of my files.
it's really frustrating.
which means i probably have to extract pixel art.
again.
same with the animated gifs.
flickr is better than photobucket.
even though photobucket is easier to use at first.
photobucket uses too much javescript or something.
which makes it laggy at times.
flickr has more room than photobucket too.
i'll use imgur for images that might get resized.
and i'll use flickr to upload pictures from the games i played.
while i'll use f2c and geocities for animated gifs.
i tried taking notes using my white and black laptops.
it was awkward and uncomfortable.
and wasted more time when it wasn't suppose to.
i went shopping two days ago.
i bought myself a palm urchin to massage my shoulders and back.
i tried a little bit.
and it works.
i also bought a konjac cleansing sponge.
which is similar to my exfoliating gloves.
except the gloves are a lot softer.
though with the sponge.
it feels like i feel very thoroughly cleaned.
i'm thinking of getting a pet fish again.
later in the year or when i get my chance to stop by the pet store.
6thirty: (luhan staring at you)
2017-01-21 08:47 am

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even though i am collecting data, i don't feel tired of it.
well that is a bit of a lie.
actually there are some data that i don't feel collecting at the moment.
so i went elsewhere to collect data.
my word document is full of data i collected.
and i need to upload it to the dreamwidth community i am making.
my current project is collecting data from a dot hack game.
i went to check up on dot hack fragment.
i want to try it, but it seems tedious to get it to work.
so i'll wait for now.
i just want to collect more data.
i am also working on collecting pixel art.
starting with rivera the promised land.
i feel more and more successful.
i was thinking of abandoning this dreamwidth account.
and make a new one.
but i already put so much work on the heroine and her harem community.
i want to work on it too, but there's so many things to work on.
thank goodness i'm not collect pixel art from a big franchise like pokemon.
i keep thinking about making a riveria dreamwidth community.
but i get the impression that i won't do much with it.
the world is not bad, but i don't know if i would even want to write a fanfic about it.
i want to write a pokemon fanfic too.
so much to do.
so little time.
and here i am ranting.
and going on and on about my work.
at least no one is around read it.
if someone did, i guess it's not the end of the world.
but my family or friends or community? 
i don't think they'll understand.
it's a weird fascination with this and that.
it's not as productive as other activities.
but i want to do these more than any other activity.
unless it's chatting.
i love to chat i realized.
but i don't have much to say.
sighs. 
6thirty: (luhan looking left)
2017-01-20 09:17 am

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i can't believe it.
i get to play my favourite video game.
it works with my black laptop.
i tried to get it to work on my white laptop.
but due to complications i decided to see if it'll work on my black laptop.
though the time to get to play it is short.
since my black laptop is technically stronger than my white laptop.
it also has a lot more room too.
i've started on collecting data.
i need to make a dreamwidth community for it.
i'm really, really excited, motivated, and inspired to do this and do that.
i almost don't care about sending instant messages and emails to others.
though i would like to also work on my stories too.
i have a word document where i put down all of my ideas in terms of magic, magical items, and magical characters.
i need to upload more files because i'm thinking of cleaning up my black laptop.
it might make my black laptop run faster.
though there are a lot of japanese cartoons that i want to turn into animated gifs.
i have a lot of backgrounds with raindrops on them.
for some reason it looks really pretty in my opinion.
i want to upload my icons into the dot hack g u community.
i feel a little tired, but all i need is some energy.
all i had so far was yogurt drinks.
i might make a livejournal account.
so i could make livejournal communities.
livejournal accounts always show up in the search engine list of links.
though i will need to come up with creative names for the for it.
we shall see.
can't wait to start doing this and that.
6thirty: (luhan looking at your way)
2017-01-19 02:23 pm

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i am almost done with uploading all of the pdfs.
i'm so happy.
i need more space on my laptop.
so i can play one of my favourite video games.
the dot hack series.
i have a project in mind.
to make a database.
i made some pngs.
after playing riveria.
i uploaded those this morning.
i want to finish up with my kiss kiss.
i also want to make dreamwidth layouts for my projects.
a final fantasy tactics advance database.
a final fantasy tactics database.
a final fantasy a2 database.
a dot hack g. u. database.
i want to collect images and information so i can refer to them later.
if i want to make a fanfic.
or a dream novel.
i would like to try making a renpy game.
or even a twine game.
we shall see.
need to organize my pdfs into their proper folders.
i should work on my japanese dating sim project too.
i also need to make film strips.
as well as comic strips.
and animated gifs.
forgot to mention i need to work on waking up exactly at seven o'clock.
i need to finish reading my cousin's book.
i need to read and take notes on the books i want to get rid of.
i need to make some dream novels.
i also need to walk for an hour.
time to watch let's get married.
6thirty: (Default)
2017-01-16 10:16 pm

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i want to fall asleep, but i already sleep way too much.
i want to work on some of my projects, but i have to upload those ebooks first.
it's a bit of a pain in the ass to do.
i feel inspired to write dream novels again.
but i also want to work on the child and father story.
i love eating mango.
it's definitely now my favourite fruit.
it used to be oranges, but oranges don't make me feel good in comparison to mangos.
i finished watching michiko to hatchin.
i binge watched it.
it was so good.
i don't regret it.
i need to find more tv shows or cartoons to watch.
i also need to take some notes on some youtube videos. 
i want to wake up early and work on stuff.
i worry i work my laptop too much.
sometimes it gets really hot.
i tried using a fan with it, but it didn't work.
it just made me laptop heat up faster.
i was listening to some nujabes's music.
it's good, i want to listen more.
i could make a playlist based off of his work.

6thirty: (luhan cute)
2017-01-15 05:01 pm

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i want to finish up with uploading the ebooks.
i can't wait to read some of the ebooks i have.
i also need to finish reading my cousin's book.
there's also a pile of books i plan to get rid of after reading them and taking some notes.
i want to work on my story.
i think i need to write it soon.
i should make this a daily thing.
writing everyday about my thoughts, worries, and feelings.
i am watching michiko to hatchin.
it's a lot of fun.
i want to watch more.
i am also going to watch let's get married.
i need to watch those documentaries too about korean pop and idols.
i tried using a fan to cool my laptop down, but all it did was make it heat up like crazy.
i haven't lost much weight.
i need to keep up with the habit.
i need to drink more water.
i ought to refill the tank for the humidifier before i go to bed.
i should take up the hobby of drawing chibis already.
i need to finish reading what my sibling wanted me to read.
6thirty: (luhan blue)
2017-01-13 06:32 pm

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i want to be a better writer.
i want to write all kinds of stories.
i want to learn more about this and that.
i want to talk to someone.
a long talk.
not just small chat.
i wish i had a dog to pet and sleep with.
i wish hope didn't passed away.
i want to lose weight.
i am practicing a habit.
getting up and walking habit.
i want to talk to my sibling.
i wonder how queer i am.
i want to create stuff.
i need to upload more e-books.
i need to clean up my laptop.
so i can have more space.
this is supposed to be a rant.
i don't know if i feel better.
i plan to write everyday.
about the same old things.
and maybe the new things that happen to me.
i have to meet a person about daytime treatment.
i also have to go to a vietnamese mental health group.
i should learn vietnamese.
but i would rather learn japanese.
i even downloaded books about japanese.
what to do, what to do.
i need to plot that story too.