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Monday, 20 February 2017 10:00 pm
6thirty: (luhan cute)
i ate so much salmon, i worry i will start to hate it.
i also drank two cups of iced tea.
i felt so full, i wanted to puke a little.
eating at the mandarin was nice.
they had a koi pond.
i think i am ready to write my twine story.
even if it is going to suck.
it's okay if it sucks.
i need stuff to work with.
see where i am at.
i need to write in my agenda.
i bought it cheap.
but i don't use it effectively to be honest.
sometimes i feel like i can't think of anything.
so i took a nap this morning since i felt like that.
i need to look at my notes and start creating stories that i want to make.
i haven't started on any original projects.
i should extract images and host them on photobucket.
since flickr doesn't accept small images.
what a bother.
oh well.
whatever works right?
i got camtasia studio to work on my white laptop.
but i have to turn off the wifi to use it.
oh well.
i got to talk to my sibling.
it was nice.
wish we could have talked more.

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Sunday, 19 February 2017 07:19 pm
6thirty: (Default)
I need to make a new display ima and a header image on facebook.
i tried to take some photos of myself with my white laptop, but no matter i try to make it look good, the quality sucks.
i think i should download some songs by boa.
it brings back memories.
i also wanted to extract images from tactics ogre.
i also have to go through my cardcaptor sakura screenshots too.
i made a plot outline, but i don't know what to write down
i didn't get much done to be honest.
so i hope after this i'll perfect my interactive stories.
i don't want them too long.
but i also don't want them to be too short too.
i managed to get camtasia studio to work on my white laptop.
though i have to turn off the wifi to get it to work.
or else i'll end up turning it into a trial version of it.
i made some animated gifs.
i made them for the interactive stories i am going to work on.
i don't plan to put any images or sounds in the game.
tomorrow is family day.
i want to order some stuff, but i have to wait until my brother comes home.
i have lots of questions to ask him about.
but he left early to hang out with our cousin.
his birthday is coming up i think.

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Sunday, 12 February 2017 07:47 pm
6thirty: (sungjae looking at you)
i didn't get a lot done even though i had the time to.
it's unfortunate, but it was my fault in the end.
i feel a burst of motivation to do extract images from video games.
i am playing through cardcaptor sakura to get some of them.
i also want to mess around with nox.
i managed to get it working on my white laptop.
unlike with bluestacks.
i feel motivated to do some prewriting.
and writing down ideas to see where they will go.
i ate and drank a lot of food and juice today.
not at all caring about following that diet my mom wants me to go through.
my brother came home yesterday.
so we hung out and watched anime.
the tower of druga i believe it was.
we were on season two when he went to take a nap.
i am suppose to be jogging but my white laptop was running out of battery.
so i'm letting it charged.
i should go make a layout for my pixel art project. 
i have to extract some of the ones i already extracted since google drive isn't letting me download them and reupload them elsewhere.
i can't even copy the link to post elsewhere too.
sighs.
flickr is good to me.
thank god it's not like photobucket.
it's has some javascript, but not as much as photobucket.
and i can upload animated gifs without the site resizing them on me.
yay.

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Saturday, 11 February 2017 08:34 pm
6thirty: (luhan blue)
i cried a lot today.
i visited my family doctor.
i asked him if he could make a copy of the letter he received from the hospital.
i don't get to see my psychiatrist anymore.
i wonder if i should get another one.
in the letter, there were some ideas i could try.
but the one that suppose to teach me more about becoming like everyone else cost money.
money that my mother wouldn't spend.
i think it might be getting to the point where i have to spend some money in order to become more like everyone else.
my mom says as long as i am happy, that should be enough.
but i will never make long lasting friendships if i don't fix what is preventing me from creating those friendships.
i wish i wasn't such a problem child.
my mom tells me not to cry, because it'll make me look ugly.
i know it's her way of showing she cares.
but all i want to do is cry and hug someone i feel comfortable with.
i guess i should go back to the drawing board and see what i can do.
i am really interested in making a twine story slash game.
i don't know if i should go original or unoriginal.
maybe unoriginal first.
i've been wanting to write fanfiction for a long while.

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Wednesday, 1 February 2017 12:34 am
6thirty: (luhan cute)
today was a good day.
even if i didn't get on my laptops.
i would like to have a lot done today.
but that is okay. 
i ended up coming up with a lot of ideas.
i feel eager to write.
but i need to plan.
it need to spit out every idea i can come up with.
and take whatever i like from it.
i was thinking making all of my stories into choose your adventure stories.
but will it work out?
i should start small.
get used to the ways of twine.
i want to finish dot hack the legend of the twilight and dot hack roots.
i want to write an mmorpg story like dot hack.
i always wanted to make games.
but i don't think becoming a game programmer is going to get me there.
i am thinking about becoming maybe a web developer.
i have some experience with it.
but it's not a lot when compared to others.
i want to write fanfics too.
i want to create character designs now.
so much to do.
need to organize my time.
i wrote it down, but not an actual schedule.
we'll see.

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Monday, 30 January 2017 09:20 am
6thirty: (Default)
i woke up on time.
i did what i had to do to clean myself up.
and then i went back to sleep.
after attempting to collect information.
i need to not do anything productive on my bed.
i should treat it as a resource.
it is where i get comfort.
but also energy.
not a place to be doing any kind of work.
or i'll turn lazy.
or go back to sleep.
need to tie my hair up to declare my choice of working hard on my laptop.
it's not like i'm very tired.
i just don't feel like i have a lot of energy.
maybe i should meditate again.
or do yoga.
i must learn to become more and more healthy.
and participate in self-care and self-love.
i am waiting for bagels to finish being toasted.
i'm pretty hungry.
i have to call later.
so i know how to get there and navigate where i should be going.
maybe i'll add more thoughts after i finish eating.

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Sunday, 29 January 2017 11:57 am
6thirty: (luhan looking left)
i stayed up too late i think.
i feel like sleeping for an eternity.
i don't feel like doing anything.
don't know why.
is it physical?
mental?
or emotional.
there are still a lot of things to do.
before i can sit down and relax.
maybe i am taking on too many projects at the moment.
i'll have to cut it down to smaller goals.
so i don't feel so overwhelmed.
listening to tinashe a lot.
it's so catchy.
she is sexy.
and the songs are sexy.
right now i really like company by her.
always in the mood to dance a little.
though i have no idea how to dance.
i wonder if she will do acoustic versions of her songs.
weirdblacktea, i need to work on you.
after this, i'll take a nap.
i deserve it.
too much water.
too much fruits.
too much pizza.
too much karaoke.
i'm interesting in making stories with twine.
i need to try it.
or i'll never learn how to in the future.
investments.
damn it.

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Saturday, 28 January 2017 08:58 am
6thirty: (yoseob mustache)
a little tired in the morning.
can't be helped.
yesterday i picked out a notebook and an agenda.
they look really cool.
though they'll be useless if i don't do anything with them.
i still have lots of other notebooks to use too.
i want to do a lot of stuff.
like finishing a dreamwidth layout.
writing down all i can think of to write a story about.
using office supplies to get stuff done.
maybe i should have bought that hole puncher.
but i can't think of anything to use it for.
next time i see it, i'll buy it.
what else to do.
oh yeah.
got to download the rest of the .hack games.
i never go to play the second and third game.
and i don't know if i want to know ahead of time of what will happen next.
i already seen the promise card endings.
gotta walk on tread mill, as i missed like three to four days already.
take down notes.
upload notes.
make sure they look nice.
move on to other areas i have yet to get started on or needs immediate attention.
today is lunar new years too.

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Friday, 27 January 2017 07:14 pm
6thirty: (zico chill)
i went to my cousin's house to hang out before the lunar new years.
i was going to type down the dialogue from the rebirth game.
instead of typing down from the actual game itself.
i decided to go watch online and write it down that way.
the pause button helps a lot.
there is still a lot of work to do.
before i can start another project.
i need to insert images i have taken from the black laptop.
and insert them into their intended posts.
i also am working on making a dreamwidth layout for my dream novel or twine community.
i am also watching the .hack animated series.
i have to finish watching roots too.
i was thinking about watching movies while i walk.
there's also that let's get married series to watch too.
no one has yet to reply to my post.
i really want to fix the mistake in my dreamwidth layout for my .hack//g.u. series.
i don't really have a lot to say.
played some pokemon go while sitting in the car and going to places.
burned paper money, paper clothes, paper everything for my grandfather who no longer living.
i don't know much about him and neither does my mother.
but i like to think he was as kind as my grandmother.
my stepfather is sick.
it doesn't bother me.
our relationship doesn't really exist.
sometimes i wonder if i should try being nicer to him.
but a part of me doesn't want to.
i don't really trust him.
like him.
or appreciate him.
maybe i am being selfish.
but i can't help it, i don't see the way the others see him.

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Thursday, 26 January 2017 05:58 pm
6thirty: (luhan's side profile)
i had a cup of hot chocolate with a mug i got my mom to buy.
it comes with a lib and it's so cute.
it's a white cat.
i went to my cousin's house to hang out.
but i ended up sleeping instead.
even though i wanted to play with my white laptop.
i made some edits in the weirdblacktea community.
though i made a mistake and will need to go back to my black laptop to find out the spelling of whatever it is.
i also have a plastic mug with a face of a bear.
it's adorable.
i also got two bottles of pomegranate flavoured aloe.
i need to work on adding the images to the content i uploaded yesterday.
i ended up writing down the conversations of the non-playable characters.
it's a bit of a hassle, but it really doesn't bother me.
i also take pictures of them too.
i plan to put up images of the non-playable characters along with their conversations.
i also plan to separately put up a list of their inventories too. 
i love listening to music after i showered and sit down somewhere comfortable.
i stopped working on my singer and his boyfriend story.
i ended up switching over to another hobby.
sighs.
do i want to be a writer?
because i really want to write to be honest.
but there's so much work to do.
to even get started, you know?
maybe i'll figure a system to follow.
and churn out actual written works.
you know?

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This is where I rant about this and that.